yeah, i just…you know…i talked about this a couple months back, but i just find it a lot harder to get invested in hawke in that the story doesn’t really change much no matter what your decisions are
as far as magic goes: it’s something he’s both jealous and very wary about. in that…he wishes he could have that kind of power, that reach, those abilities, and he’s absolutely sure he wouldn’t succumb to all of the ~treacherous things~ mages have to deal with (which…may or may not be true). but because he doesn’t have that power, he’s just as much “at the mercy of a mage’s wrath” as anyone else. he and aveline very much have different ideals, but i think they’d both see magic in the same way: necessary and tolerated, but ultimately not something to be toyed with: a healthy respect, and let the templars deal with it. (until they want to kill a bunch of innocent people, especially his sister. then he’s like WELL, SHIT)
his time in kirkwall would really only exacerbate that view, in that almost every mage he encounters deals in some sort of forbidden magic—even the ones that decide to help him. he’d see bethany as one of the few who actually knows how to be smart about it, thanks to their father, and he’d wonder how the city fell so far in the time since malcolm lived there…but then, his dad had the wise idea to escape in the first place, hadn’t he?
the loss of leandra would crush him, though he denies as much. as far as my headcanon goes, both siblings are alive, with beth in the circle until the end of da2 and carver in the wardens (because class balancing is bullshit), but you know…he still has to deal with their loss; he’s supposed to be their big brother, the protective “man of the house” with malcolm gone, and he lets every one of them slip through his fingers.
his family—blood or otherwise—is everything. he will do anything for them under any circumstance, but in exchange, he expects that kind of loyalty and protectiveness back. he will not stand for those who betray their own. anyone else? fair game.